🐹🥕 I have changed my lifestyle since mid-December. I have almost completely given up sugar. This means that I haven’t had any cola, lemonade, or sweets for about eight weeks - except for two homemade cheesecakes and chocolate milk.

🚭🐛 Additionally, I quit smoking completely from one day to the next and made my diet more diverse. I follow a daily fitness program and have gained over 20 kg (44 lbs) in the last 7–8 weeks without putting on much fat. Everything feels firm and toned. Eight weeks ago, I was underweight at 64 kg (141 lbs), and now, at 85 kg (187 lbs), I’m back in my comfort zone.

🧠👨‍💻 The past year has taken a toll on my nerves, especially because I was working through trauma and grief while also dealing with unnecessary and unfair behavior in my personal life. I buried myself in work, ate too little, thought too much, and spent too little time outdoors.

🌈🌎 I also put a lot into this project over the past 6 years. After all, I invested not only several thousand euros but also countless hours of work into the megagroundsloth project. Then Instagram’s algorithms changed, and public sentiment shifted significantly against diversity topics. That frustrated me a lot.

🚫👎 When I brought up the subject of ADHD, a few people showed interest and I responded in detail. Strangely enough, it seems normal to then simply stop the conversation or complain because I didn't respond quickly enough - I didn't expect a thank you.

💔😳 When I announced a long break from Instagram at the end of December, only two people cared. That was really hurtful. How would you feel if you had been involved with people for years, and no one reacted when you said goodbye?

😵‍💫⁉️ When I expressed my frustration in my stories, intensified somewhat by quitting smoking, I quickly realized that this wasn’t the right way to handle it. I apologized right away.

🦥✨️ If you noticed: I drastically shortened my announced break. I’m back and mostly posting selfies. Yes, I’m here, and I’m claiming my space. I write texts that are meant to make people think, and even if only two out of a thousand people read them, I’ll keep going.

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