🚌✨️ Well, I'm sitting on a bus.
Like almost every day.

🥕 And in the right light you can also see that I eat my carrots regularly.

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🐦‍🔥🔥🐣 I am like a phoenix that always rises from its own ashes.

I had lost 14 kg in body weight in about a year due to the emotional stress I was experiencing. I gained it back in less than a month.

I had communicated quite openly that I was going through a difficult time. As a man, however, you don't need to hope for any kind of emotional support.

That's also a good thing: You can't get comfortable in the role of victim.

On the one hand, it is claimed and expected that men should open up emotionally and learn to talk about difficulties. At the same time, it is proven time and again that as soon as men do this, they are ignored and dismissed as weak.

What a spectacle! 😉

One reason why many men plunge into self-destruction (alcohol, drugs, etc.) or use violence to "take control". I didn't do that. I dealt with it artistically, I informed myself, communicated and sought exchange. And then I made decisions and rebuilt myself.

I have proven that I am strong. But I have also proven what is unhealthy! Namely the "social" way we interact with one another.

One day I openly expressed my frustration in the stories because the behavior here hurt me. I even apologized for the reaction our toxic dynamic caused in me. Many people thought that was great.

It is interesting that an apology for an understandable reaction - without wanting to justify it - was met with so much approval, but almost nobody was interested in the causes. 😉

By doing so, people are signaling that they only want to see positive things from me, that vulnerability only applies if it affects them personally or promises some benefit. That the social idea in social networks has nothing to do with social responsibility and exchange, but actually only serves as a means of self-presentation and entertainment.

As soon as I present myself as strong here in a superficial way and visibly high interaction rates give people an indication of what they can and cannot like, everyone runs after me like drooling chickens.

Anyone who has even a basic understanding of who I am will also understand that this won't work with me.

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I have a white background. I am a white man of German descent in Germany. I am discriminated against. But not because I am white or a man, but despite being a white man. I am able to differentiate. If white men in Germany or other Western countries experience structural discrimination, then this is for individual reasons other than skin color or gender. Then it is due to reasons such as poverty, age, physical or psychological characteristics, possibly religion or other characteristics. But not because you are a white man. For being a white man, you cannot be discriminated against in Western countries because white men are structurally and systematically extremely favored.

The abolition of diversity programs also harms white men like me. Because it means that the facts underlying the discrimination are taken even less into account. Poverty-related injustices (homeless mother during my youth), structural disadvantages of neurodiversity (ADHD), stigma (experience of trauma, depression) - all of these are things that diversity programs and outreach are designed to counteract. And this is being abolished because many people are unable to deal with the true circumstances, are possibly blind to their own problems and then perceive the simplest answer as correct by starting to believe that they are being discriminated against because of their light skin color.

In 2020, white males held approximately 85.8% of CEO positions in Fortune 500 companies. Including white women, the total percentage of white CEOs was about 92.6%. If we look at the USA, about 57 percent of the population there is white, but the government is 75 percent white. The world is still dominated by colonialist and imperialist power structures - which on top of that contributes to many people seeking refuge in Western nations. For example, because large European corporations exploit people in other countries and thereby perpetuate poverty with all its negative consequences, such as criminal power structures and acts of war.

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Oops? Here I am, completely unexpected and unannounced! Because something is really bothering me right now! And I believe that it has its origins in the new right and anti-wokeness movement!

What's all this talk about frontal lobes lately? People who talk nonsense supposedly don't have any, people who are supposedly enlightened have fully developed them? It's actually pretty disgusting to talk like that. I have a congenitally dysfunctional frontal lobe and am above average intelligent.

I have come across this rhetoric far (!) too often lately! The fact is, intelligence, brain structure, or cognitive abilities have zero bearing on a person's worth or dignity!

It’s disgusting and deeply problematic to talk about intelligence or human worth in a way that dismisses or devalues people based on neurological differences!

The kind of language that reduces a person's value to their perceived intelligence, brain function, or "fitness" is disturbingly reminiscent of eugenic ideologies, including those promoted by the Nazis.

They notoriously propagated harmful ideas about "biological superiority" and used pseudoscience to justify dehumanizing entire groups of people based on traits like disability, neurodivergence, or perceived "deficiencies".

When people casually throw around terms about "fully developed frontal lobes" or use neuroscience as a way to belittle others, it can unintentionally echo those dangerous attitudes. It may not always be intentional, but it still reinforces the idea that some people are "better" or more "valuable" than others based on traits that aren’t within anyone's control.

This is why it's so important to reject such rhetoric. These kinds of comparisons don’t just stigmatize - they dehumanize, and that has real-world consequences for how people with disabilities or neurodivergence are treated. Everyone deserves to be valued for who they are, not judged against some arbitrary or reductive standard of worth.

Please do not share or support such rhetoric!

By the way, anyone who thinks a little would realize that woke is just a collective term that everyone has a different idea of!

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🐦‍🔥

Lurking at Zero
🔥 Waiting in Darknet
Violent Phoenix

You See Weakness
🔥 Artificial Sickness
Violent Phoenix

Violent Phoenix
🔥 Ashes to Ashes
Violent Phoenix

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Authentic people are generally cautious about making absolute statements. This may make them appear incompetent and insecure in the eyes of some people, but authentic people are happy to accept this - because they prefer to stand by their doubts and caution rather than pretend to be confident. Those who live in harmony with themselves allow themselves to change and develop, sometimes even drastically. Authentic people do not hold on to their values ​​and beliefs out of principle, but because they seem right to them. But new experiences and knowledge can change their perspective at any time.

My next post will be my last for a while. Until then, I'll be devoting myself to another project and a new professional orientation (artificial intelligence). I've been working very intensively on the megagroundsloth project for 6 years now. Over 900 posts and a million characters of program code for my associated website. I've reached an average of 20,000 people a month, but recently everything here seems to have rotted a bit. I'll leave you to compost peacefully for a while, if the world allows it. My next post will give you a taste of what I've been working on conceptually since April and am now putting into practice. I have to be honest and say that I've noticed certain changes in our interaction that I can't really understand. But I'm not going to deal with that. Since my next post is just a poem, an artistic farewell note, I'll say goodbye here with an invisible tear tickling my cheek.

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🐯🔥 I have a "spotted coat" made up of light blonde, dark blonde, red, white, and gray hairs. This variety of colors reminds me of the patterns seen in animals like lynxes or tigers, where irregular colors serve the purpose of camouflage.

🦣 In prehistoric times, my multicolored hair structure could have served a similar function. The light and dark strands would have mimicked the interplay of light and shadow in the environment. Light hair, such as my blonde or white strands, would reflect the light filtering through the treetops, while darker hairs would have imitated the shadows of the vegetation. This irregular pattern would have helped me blend into the shaded surroundings of forests or open landscapes, making me less visible—similar to animals whose fur patterns merge with their environment.

🐅 In addition to camouflage, the striking hair color could have also played a social role, such as in group identification or mate selection. My "spotted coat" could therefore have been not only an aesthetic feature but also a remnant of a functional adaptation to nature.

🧬 Genetically, the variety in hair colors can be explained by complex inheritance patterns. Hair color is influenced by several genes, with the MC1R gene being the most important for red hair. This gene regulates whether the hair predominantly produces the red pigment pheomelanin or the brown/black pigment eumelanin. Variations in this gene lead to different hair colors, from red to darker or blonde shades. Other genes, such as the ASIP gene, influence the intensity and tone of hair color, particularly the production of dark hair.

🏔🏞 The genetic diversity in hair color could also be an adaptation to climatic conditions or habitats. In northern regions, where there is less sunlight, gene variants may have favored lighter hair colors to absorb more UV light and promote vitamin D production.

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🦆🦴🥣 Living in a shared space requires compromise, mutual respect, and shared responsibility, but communication barriers can make understanding difficult. I faced this challenge while living with housemates whose actions initially seemed selfish or dismissive. Over time, I began to wonder if their behavior stemmed from challenges related to the autism spectrum rather than narcissism.

🎄✨️🍗 I worked hard to create a welcoming environment, defrosting the freezer, decorating for Christmas, baking a cake, and buying ingredients for our holiday meal. Despite these efforts, I wasn’t informed when the dinner started, and by the time I joined, only scraps remained. To make matters worse, my housemates laughed off my hurt feelings, leaving me feeling excluded and unappreciated.

😡💢🗯 At first, I saw their behavior as narcissistic, but I began to question whether it reflected difficulties in understanding social norms rather than intentional disregard. Neurodivergent individuals often process social interactions differently, which can lead to missed cues or unintentional insensitivity. My housemates may not have recognized my contributions or understood the emotional impact of their actions. Unlike narcissism, which involves deliberate disregard, these behaviors likely stemmed from communication challenges.

💔🤔💭 I tried to express my feelings but realized that clearer communication—such as setting expectations—might have been more effective. I also focused on small positives, like repurposing leftovers into soup, while recognizing that supporting neurodivergent needs shouldn’t mean neglecting my own boundaries. Respect and acknowledgment are essential for everyone.

🗺🧭 This experience taught me to distinguish between selfishness and neurodivergent challenges. Navigating such relationships requires empathy, patience, and clear communication, but also firm boundaries to maintain emotional well-being. Striking a balance between understanding others and respecting oneself is key to healthier, more equitable relationships.

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🦬🦥 Why do I shave a yak? Because you humans bore me to death! – Just kidding! 🙃

🙋 The real reason behind the endless distractions isn’t boredom—it’s ADHD. Yak shaving, the term for getting caught up in small tasks before addressing the main goal, is something many with ADHD know well. It’s not a quirky habit, but how the ADHD brain works.

🕰 For someone with ADHD, even a simple task can spiral. You start cleaning your desk, notice a broken drawer, and decide to fix it. To do that, you need a screwdriver, but the toolbox is a mess, so you begin reorganizing it. Hours pass, and the desk is still cluttered. This is yak shaving: getting sidetracked by seemingly urgent tasks that pull you further from the original goal.

🧠 This happens because the ADHD brain craves novelty and stimulation, making it hard to prioritize long-term goals. While some romanticize yak shaving as a creative process, it’s mostly just a distraction. It’s not a superpower, nor a failure—just a reality of ADHD.

📆 Managing yak shaving isn’t about avoiding distractions, but staying focused on what matters. Writing down your goal, using a timer, and keeping visual reminders can help anchor your focus. When you drift, don’t beat yourself up—just redirect your attention.

🛤 Yak shaving isn’t a whimsical adventure or failure; it’s part of ADHD. With humor and practical strategies, you can navigate distractions and make progress. The goal isn’t to stop yak shaving, but to approach it with patience, so it doesn’t derail you. After all, whether or not the yak gets shaved, the key is to keep moving forward.

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👨‍💻🪳 Artificial Roach: Which video is real and which was completely AI generated?

One of my dubia roaches (Blaptica dubia) and it's artificial duplicate.

💻 In the beta version of Premiere Pro, you can easily enhance videos using AI (Adobe Firefly). Of course, you can still recognize what is real.

👀 How will we experience the world in our future?

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